After a long time, I took to Parivrajaka Yatra for few days, last few days, preparing my body and mind, spending little time in Omkareshwar, and literally prepared my body and mind and of course, consciousness doesn’t need any preparation – to give the experience of Shivoham to all of you. Listen, the few realizations I wanted to share with you all from the last few days of my spending time with myself. Please understand, that is tapas for me. I don’t do any other tapas other than just being with me, Upanishad with myself, Atma Upanishad, sitting with the Soul, sitting with the Cosmos.
The first thing I wanted to tell all of you, Shivoham, the experience that you are the Cosmos, the ultimate Advaithic experience, is simply possible! You don’t need anything other than little bit of settling down, understand. See, when I tell you, ‘You are Mahadeva; remember Shivoham!’ the number of questions crosses you are the impossibilities which hits at you at that moment, saying, ‘how can I be? No, no’. Actually, your logic will not even be fully uttered.
You will just deny, ‘Nothing! Impossible! Forget about it! I have so much problems! Shivoham?
If I am Shiva, then Shiva must have lived really a bad life!’
Instead of you going up to the level of Mahadeva, you will bring Mahadeva down to your level!
See, when I tell you, ‘You ARE Shiva! You ARE the Cosmos!’, the first initial self-denials which comes, the speed with which they are attacking you, just you need to reduce the speed of that; that’s all; nothing else!
Last few days I was literally doing mono-acting. Means, I became you and retained My original space and tried to become original Me. Means, the Jeeva becoming Shiva, from all dimensions I was playing, from all possibility I was working on this – Jeeva becoming Shiva – and looking at what all the ways more, what all the doors, new doors which I have not yet opened, I can open for all of you to experience Shivoham. Actually, that was the theme with which I was just sitting with myself for last few days. I don’t know how many days; maybe four days or five days, I don’t know….whatever. I was just sitting with myself spending time; what all the ways I can open the door of Shivoham to all of you. I think almost six days, ok, and nights; because I don’t have something separately called sleep. Day and night I was just sitting with myself. So, becoming the Jeeva, and trying to reach Shiva – it was a nice game within myself – and see the possibilities, see how the different complex patterns give you suffering, how they are able to convince you more than Me.
Please understand, unless there is a romance between your soul and my soul, you can never become a disciple of me.
The moment you become a disciple, already your soul has recognized the eternal romance. That is why you even took the first step. The eternal romance…..even this word is misused and abused, understand. When I say ‘eternal romance’, I mean the experience the soul feels when it starts strongly feeling that it has met its Completion part, its fulfillment, the goal of its journey. Only when your soul, not your mind, your soul feels that I am the goal of your journey, the disciple-hood starts happening. Now I don’t want to use the word ‘eternal romance’; I wanted to use the word, better, straight words. Even after recognizing I am your goal, what is it that convinces you more than my ability to convince you?
See, whole day, every day, my satsangh to you, or me appearing to you wherever you are, whenever you call me, or pray for me ask for my help, all this is a long…. my way of trying to convince you that you are Mahadeva, you are the ultimate.
Understand, whether it is a simple first time you come and attend a Kalpataru Darshan, or you attend a webinar, or you attend a morning satsangh, or just because somebody told you, you prayed to me and got some boon, or just because your friend said “eh eh eh I went to this Swami, I asked him for this, immediately this happened. Why don’t you keep his picture in your pooja room and pray to him and he will give you whatever you ask.” And you pray or just you see me in YouTube, a satsang, accidentally, sometime these stupid media comedy shows pop up. People start watching that and then go to my YouTube satsangs and watch. So, it can be whatever, but everything, everything or you attend an Inner Awakening programme, everything boils down to this one:
Giving you the experience of Advaitha, enlightenment. Earlier I used to use the word ‘enlightenment’; now I am using the word ‘Advaitha; because, the word ‘enlightenment’ is used more by the Buddhists; I am trying to bring more Vedic word for that experience.
Everything, everything boils down to this one: Making you experience Shivoham! Listen. Now I want to tell you, it is very simple, not at all complicated; Very simple. Just the speed with which your patterns have convinced you, your patterns attack you, that speed need to be reduced; that’s all, nothing else! Because, originally, your inner-space is already hardwired for Shivoham! Please understand, suddenly I cannot send 440 volt into this hall’s wiring unless the hard-wiring is done for 440 volts. Same way, suddenly I cannot infuse Shivoham into you unless your inner-space is already hardwired for Shivoham. I am telling you, your inner-space is already hardwired for Shivoham! Already it is hardwired for the ultimate Cosmic experience. It is not that I need to do wiring newly. No! I don’t need to do the job of electrician. I may just need to do the job of little bit of plumber job, means correcting here and there; too much of leakage, those things I have to seal; and just have to do my responsibility of being a generator, that’s all. Just I have to become a generator and connect myself. You are all already hardwired for that experience Shivoham. I don’t need to do the job of electrician. Even plumber job is not required for everyone; little bit for the people who are coming newly you need to give them little Yoga or Nirahara Samyama. See, Nithya Yoga Teachers Training, Nirahara Samyama, all these are preparations, just to give you kind of preparation – that sealing all the wrong holes which are leaking. Plumber job, that’s all. And, then, I tell you, simply switch on the generator, that’s all! And this generator is not even an ordinary generator; it is a turbine, the Cosmic Turbine! Simply I have to give the connection, touch, the Energy Darshan.
Understand, the moment I tell you, you are the Ultimate, the kind of a denial gangs up around you, gags you, saying, ‘No, no, no, no! You are not Ultimate! He is lying! He himself, I think, doesn’t know! What kind of ultimate? In next half-an-hour what all problems you are going to face I know!’ The mind will constantly remind you! Especially after certain period you spend in the low mood, logically being convinced, see, initially, the low mood, the self-denial does not come illogically. It comes to you and logically convinces you. Once you give up fighting with that incompletions, then it continues to exist in you illogically, eternally. It just makes you feel you are gone; you are the bunch of incompletions. No! That speed with which it is attacking you, that needs to be reduced; that’s all, nothing else.
In these six days sitting constantly….. I tell you, earlier I meditated for myself. Now I am sitting and meditating for all of you. I am just looking at all the possibilities. Actually, I was deeply contemplating almost continuously forty hours on this one truth: Why some of your incompletions are able to convince you more than I am able to convince you. Because, almost whole day and night I am sitting here and convincing you! Most of you would have spent more time with Me than your spouse, or, for that sake, anybody in your life! Most of you would have spent time with Me more than the time you spent with your mother or father or your spouse, or with anybody else! And time with Me, even if it is chronologically ten minutes, psychologically it is like ten years! Because, I am a heavy being! I am not a light being, or what I am speaking is not Theology Light – ‘Oh, smile always, be smiling, be loving……’ No! What I am talking is not Theology Light where you can just brush Me aside. I challenge you: Just watch one YouTube discourse half-an-hour, in the night dream I will be there; in your dreams! I am too heavy! Whether you understand what I am saying or not, that is up to your intellectual ability, but I will be there in your inner-space, in the dream you will see Me! That is my being’s ability! What I say, whether you understand or not, is your intellectual ability. But just watch one YouTube satsangh half-an-hour; I will be there in the night in your dream! I am too heavy, understand!
So, I was wondering in last few days: What is it that convinces you more than my heaviness?
Constantly I am reminding you – whether I am physically giving the satsangh or not – constantly I am giving you the experience – Shivoham, Shivoham, Shivoham!
This is what exactly I found, the key, keys: The speed with which your incompletions gangs up around you and gags you, that need to be reduced; that’s all! Otherwise, I have given enough of teachings to counter all your illogical incompletions, incompletion illogic. I have given enough of logic for you to counter your illogical incompletions and incompletion illogic. Incomplete illogic, illogical incompletions! Listen. I have done my job of giving you tons and tons and tons of analysis to make you understand your incompletion is illogical. I have done that job. Then, what is it still brings impossibility in you?
One: Forgetfulness. You forget to stand in the Advaithic context constantly.
And, second: The reason for the forgetfulness is, suddenly, all your incompletions ganging up around you and gagging you. Just if that speed is reduced, that’s enough; nothing else is required.
See, when you are sitting in the office morning 11 o’clock, your boss is coming for a meeting suddenly, what stupid breakfast you ate you don’t know, you are really feeling sleepy, you are yawning, you are feeling heavy, your head is being pulled this side that side, and you don’t know what to do, how you are going to face the boss, at that moment you don’t need big solution; you just need that two minutes you have to handle that sleep; maybe you have to stand up and start jogging without thinking or just cup of tea; or a fight with your colleague! These are all the way you get inspired! No, I know many people use fighting with the colleague as a inspiration or rejuvenate them self! When they really feel bored and don’t know how to rejuvenate them self or how to recharge them self, they just look around and pick up a fight with somebody! Or they even make a phone call and fight with somebody and then come back – Come on now I am fresh alive, let’s start the work! There are some people, they use fight as an inspiration source!
Listen, listen, listen sincerely! That sleep which comes before your boss meeting, does not need to be handled in too serious difficult way….you don’t need to worry about it too much. Just a few moments jogging, or a cup of tea….that moment if you escape, that’s all; even you will be surprised, ‘Wow! I handled the boss meeting so beautifully! I did my presentation so well. Amazing!’ Even you will be surprised by you!
Same way, I am telling you, the incompletions which stops you experiencing Shivoham, you don’t need to do big struggle to remove them. They are not that big guys. They are not that big guys. Don’t even bother. Just that initial attack, speed, velocity, the way they gang up need to be mellowed down; that’s all!
For that you just need to spend little time with yourself.
It is nothing but settling down period. You see, how newly married you just jump on each other thinking that other person is going to fulfil you, complete you….. ‘happily lived ever after’….. Maybe you can use that statement on your tomb: ‘Happily lived ever after’! This ‘happily lived ever after’ appearing as a scroll, and this couple holding the hand together and walking, is eternal scene in almost all Hollywood, Bollywood, Tollywood, Kollywood, Sandalwood, whatever ‘wood’ it may be, this scene is the eternal scene, this is the end: ‘happily lived ever after’! That is one of the biggest hope human-beings think the other person will complete you, the other person will fulfil you. You jump on each other. The next scene should be few pigs on that Corporation garbage dumping yard! If I am asked to do a movie, next scene I will put that only, in vast Corporation like Delhi or Chennai, Bangalore, Corporation dumping yard; in that a few pigs fighting with each other! And, then, realizing neither each other are fulfilling the other, nor that garbage is giving them what they want!
Understand, I am not against marriage. I am against loaded marriage – marriage loaded with false expectations, marriage loaded with false expectations and false promises; the man try to take away all the powers of the woman without taking the responsibility of completing her, woman tries to control the man without taking the responsibility of completing him. Actually, before the marriage, you both have to sit and do the ‘Anyakaara Parishodhana’. Means, what you think about you, how you project you to others, and how you perceive the other person, and how you perceive the world. This Ahankaara, Mamakaara, Anyakaara, Swa-Anyakaara, these four you both need to sit together and analyze. This is the first thing need to be done before any marriage, before any relationship; even before making a friend. If you sit and analyze it, you will have an amazing friend, you will have a best friend! In our Sangha also I have seen, I have seen some of the best friends, they understood all these four of both. Both of them have understood these four. Only then they became best friends.
In your life, with whomever you shared these four, means, Inner Image, Outer Image, Others’ Image, Life Image, and they shared their Inner Image, Outer Image, Life Image, Others’ Image, you became best buddies. If you are husband and wife, you became best husband and wife. If you are friends, you became best friends. If you are brother and sisters, you became best brother and sisters. The best happens between you guys when you share what is your Inner Image now, Outer Image, Others’ Image, Life Image, and what you want to become, both your existing image and authentic image, you became best support for each other.
Understand, like how you jump on each other after the marriage thinking that other is going to fulfil you, and then once the honeymoon is over, fall flat, ‘I think it is not the way I thought.’, same way, your incompletions jump on you and try to have a permanent life over you. Drop them! Tell them, no, you don’t have place for them. Tell them you don’t have place for them. Tell them you don’t have place for them. I tell you, you just need to spend little time with you for the water to settle down on its own.
I have found deeper and deeper secrets to make you experience Shivoham. The first, when the incompletions gang up on you and gag you, do not fight with them. When there is a cyclone, all the dust sticks, various objects are flying in the air and rotating around you, don’t be a foolish warrior picking up a crowbar and fighting with them, or a sword and fighting with them; be intelligent escapist. Get into your room, lock all the doors and windows and keep quiet and sit. It will settle down in half-an hour. Come out, all the weapons which were flying around, will be lying on the floor. Start ruling! I am telling you, when the cyclone comes, you should not be a foolish warrior; intelligent escapist! That is bravery! That is braveness! When all your incompletions and patterns gang up on you and gag you, fighting with them is useless. At that moment, even if you fight with them and come to any conclusion, that will not stay in you. Even if you stood and fought with all the incompletions saying, ‘Get out! I am Shiva only! I am living in Shivoham space only! You all get out and get lost!’ after two days, you will forget. That state won’t be permanent. At that time, all you need to do is never fight with illogical incompletions. That is like arguing with your spouse when she is having periods! I will reveal little deeper detail. When she is already low and suffering, you go on argue, you will ever win? Never! Same way, men too have a period! You need to know that! Tantra very clearly gives a methodology and process to diagnose the men’s period. When a man is having a period, he will behave literally exactly illogical.