Inner Image drank the Life Image, ate the Outer Image, dancing on Others’ Image.


तदेजति तन्नैजति तद्दूरे तद्वन्तिके।
तदन्तरस्य सर्वस्य तदु सर्वस्यास्य बाह्यतः॥

Thadhejathi Thannaijathi Thadhdhoore Thadhvanthike |

Thadhantharasya Sarvasya Thadhu Sarvasyaasya Baahyathah ||

 It is truth that Consciousness moves, and, at the same time, it is truth that Consciousness does not move.  Truth that Consciousness is far off from the farthest space, the truth that Consciousness is also nearer than the nearest space.  Truth is the inner space of the whole Cosmos.  Truth is also the outer space of the whole Cosmos.  Pervading an uniformly ever-present inside and encompassing this Cosmos from the outside, pervading an uniformly ever-present inside and encompassing this Cosmos from outside.

It is an amazing sutra!  Please listen!  What Upanishads want to declare through this verse: Break from something which is making you perceive “inside” “outside” separately, “moving” “unmoving” separately, “anthara” “baahyathah” separately.

Listen!  Thadhejathi Thannaijathi (तदेजति तन्नैजति) – “moving” “unmoving” separately.  What is that, that makes you perceive something as “moving”, something as “unmoving”?  What is that, that makes you perceive something is “near”, something is “far off”.  What is that, that makes you perceive something is “inside you”, and something is “outside you”?

Listen!  I am going to repeat, explain once more my enlightenment experience from the context of this verse.  Listen!  Please listen!  Exactly what was that I realized on the Vaikaashi-Vishaakham, Vaikaashi month, Poornima Thithi, Vishaakham Nakshathram, evening.

When I completed eleven, and aging into twelve, that year Vaikaashi month, Vishaakha Nakshathra, Pournami Thithi…..  This is the way we Indians keep the date in the memory.  We do not keep that English calendar date.  Somehow I always kept only based on the Thithi and Rashi and Nakshathra.  So, now, if you can google, you google and find out exactly what is the date.

Let me describe.  Because, we never bothered about the Kaala.  We bothered only about the essence of Kaala.

When I completed eleven, and moving into twelve, that year this has happened.  Listen!  Exactly what happened let me describe.

As usual, I went and sat on one rock.  I didn’t choose, please understand.  I didn’t choose.  It was just a casual…..  Usually I sit here, there, here, there.  Somehow that day, I sat on one rock which has become a Theertha Kshetra now for all our devotees and disciples.  I sat casually.  Whenever I find time, I will go and spend time in that space in that area, because Devi became enlightened there.  My guru, Vibhudhanandapuri always used to tell, ‘This is Devi’s energy field.’  That place is called “Pavizha Kundru”, “Coral Hill”.  She used to tell, ‘This is Devi’s energy space, energy field.’  So, I always used to go and sit there.  I was sitting on a rock.  To tell you honestly, I was not even doing some serious meditation.  I can say, in a way, the whole ambience was so calm, so beautiful, I decided to close my eyes.  Once I closed the eyes, the intensity of my yearning started taking over me.  The intensity to realize myself, my true nature, started possessing me.  It has taken possession over me.

The Kathopanishad declares, ‘Shraddha Vivecha’Shraddha just took over Nachiketa!  All of you know how fear takes over you, greed takes over you.  When fear takes over you, when you have the panic attack, you just do things you always feel guilty, shy, later on about it.  You repent for it.  You don’t know why you did it.  Same way, when lust takes over you, when greed takes over you, you do things which you can never logically justify even to yourself.  But, when authenticity takes over you, it will be ten thousand times more intense than fear taking over, or greed taking over.  It will be ten thousand times more intense, powerful.  When fear takes over you, it is called “panic attack”.  When greed takes over you, it is called “restlessness”.  When authenticity takes over you, it is called Satori!

My sincere seeking, that “overpowered” me!  That is the right word I should use.  I just felt, ‘What is it that I am seeking?  Who is that me who is seeking?  Who is that me that is deeply discontented about anything I see, hear?  Who is that who is deeply discontented even about my own existence?’  Listen!  Almost like, ‘Who am I who is so discontented about my own existence?’  Understand, all of you have discontentment about your own existence; but you never look into Why, What, Who is having that discontentment.  You try to look in.  If you get one russgulla(indian sweet), you forget that.  You try to look in.  If you get something else, you forget that.  Very easily that question – Why, What, Who is so discontented? – those questions are forgotten very easily.  The person for whom the question has become the first and top priority, he is a “Seeker”.  It was such strong taking over.  That is the right word I will use – “taking over”.

Listen!  Understand!  When that whole being took over, ‘Who am I that is experiencing this deep discontentment, suffocation?’  I can see very clearly, that heaviness just went into depths of the Consciousness.  Suddenly, one moment, the first thing happened is, that idea “inside” and “outside” broke.  Please understand, the inner space and outer space broke.  The first experience is that I was able to see everything around me, above me, the whole 360 degrees, ten directions, below me, everything!  I realized not only I was able to see, I was able to feel, experience!

I am actually now reliving that experience to describe any point I left out, which I have not described.

I felt that the skin of the stone, on rock on which I was sitting, and the skin of this body, both carry me equally, in both I exist equally!  Both carry me equally!  In both I exist equally!  The air, the breeze, the setting sun, rising moon, the whole Arunachala Hill, all the plants, bush, shrubs, trees, everything, everything, everything just became so alive!  The idea something is inside and something is outside is completely lost!  First I was able to see all the ten directions, 360 degrees.  The next moment itself, I realized, not only I am able to see, I am able to experience all of that as me!  I didn’t feel vulnerable; I felt powerful.  I didn’t feel vulnerable; I felt powerful.  So powerful!  I just know I am that oneness is the Existence!  There is no “inner”, there is no “outer”, there is no “moving”, there is no “unmoving”.  The smallest movements of these plants is my movement, and the highest stillness of the centre of the Cosmos is my stillness.  “Moves” and “moves not”, what you call as “near”, what you call as “far off”, those concepts are lost.  What you call as “inner space”, inside you, “outer space”, outside you, the ideas are forgotten.  Mamakaara, the Inner Image, drank the Life Image, ate the Outer Image and dancing on Others’ Image!

The Inner Image drank the Life Image, ate the Outer Image, dancing on Others’ Image.  Do “manana”, Vaakyaartha Sadhas on this statement.

Inner Image drank the Life Image, ate the Outer Image, dancing on Others’ Image.  Means, there is no gaps between images; there is no imagination.  It was such, the ignorance melted down!  Ignorance melted down!

तदेजति तन्नैजति तद्दूरे तद्वन्तिके।
तदन्तरस्य सर्वस्य तदु सर्वस्यास्य बाह्यतः॥

Thadhejathi Thannaijathi Thadhdhoore Thadhvanthike |

Thadhantharasya Sarvasya Thadhu Sarvasyaasya Baahyathah ||

 Whenever you look inside you, that immature you, that Inner Image constantly asking for security, beggar, he slips like a soap on the bath tub.  If you drop the soap in the bathing bucket or bath tub, how it just slips from your hand everywhere, same way, the Inner Image will be slipping from your hand everywhere, whenever you try to look in and catch.  But, after few minutes, that soap will just melt and become one with the water.  Same way, even if you are not able to catch that Inner Image, if you just running behind it and squeezing, squeezing, in few minutes it will disappear, it will not be there.  That is why the seeking gives you the experience of liberation.  Every time you catch the soap and it escapes from you, one layer is peeled off.  Next time when you catch and it escapes from your hand, one layer is pulled off.  In few times, the soap is not there.

तदेजति तन्नैजति तद्दूरे तद्वन्तिके।
तदन्तरस्य सर्वस्य तदु सर्वस्यास्य बाह्यतः॥

Thadhejathi Thannaijathi Thadhdhoore Thadhvanthike |

Thadhantharasya Sarvasya Thadhu Sarvasyaasya Baahyathah ||

 You need to actually find out: What is that, makes you experience “inside” and “outside” separately?  What is that, makes you experience “that moves” and “moves not” separately?  What is that, that makes you experience something as “far off” and something as “near”?  Something as “far off” and something as “near”?

Upanishads clearly declare: ‘Find which makes you experience something is “moving”, something is “not moving”, something is “closer”, something is “far off”, something is “outside”, something is “inside”.’  Complete with that; you will experience this verse!  Till then, it will only be the intellectual jugglery.  The very declaration itself is a technique and the truth, understand?  What Upanishads declare here is the truth and technique for you.  Go on do Vaakyaartha Sadhas on it, “manana” on it.  You will realize it is a truth-cum-technique.

I will continue to expand on Upanishad verses.

Today’s subject for Vaakyaartha Sadhas is:

Inner Image swallowed the Outer Image, drank the Life Image, dancing on Others’ Image completely!  Inner Image drank the Life Image completely, swallowed the Outer Image completely, and dancing on Others’ Image!  Contemplate on it and do Vaakyaartha Sadhas on it.

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About Sri Nithya Sadashivatmananda

Initiated disciple of His Holiness Sri Sri Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji.