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Mom, tell me what is Advaitha Sathya?


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It seems, yesterday, one of our gurukul kids asked his mother, ‘Mom, tell me what is Advaitha Sathya?’

I wanted to answer that kid.

Listen!

“UNDERSTANDING THAT WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE AS YOU IS THE SAME STUFF EXPERIENCED AS THEM BY EVERYTHING THAT EXISTS” is Advaitha Sathya.

What you experience as you in the deepest corner of you when you are listening to you, not when you are talking to you, but when you are listening to you, what you feel as you. Remove the patterns, remove the thought patterns, remove the root patterns; all this is your aggression towards you. Thought pattern is the speaker, root pattern is the mike. If you remove all that, IN YOUR PURE LISTENING WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE AS YOU, THAT SAME ONLY IS EXPERIENCED AS THEM BY EVERY BEING EXISTING, that is Advaitha Sathya.

Even your worst enemy whom you don’t like, whom you can’t stand, even he experiences the same stuff as you. So, all your fight is your own one hand fighting with your own other hand, your own one part fighting with your own other part. Including the war I am waging! May be this whole drama is happening, or I am doing it just to prove a point how the power of Advaitha Sathya wins, how Advaitha Sathya, the power of an enlightened being can never be shaken or disturbed by any number of conspiracies. May be there is a reason. But all, all, all the wars you are waging is only one part of you waging with the other part. Same way, all desires you have is your own one part having desire for the other part. It is like your own one hand, if you have brought it to your cheek and you are wiping it, that is all is all attachment. Your fight: your own one hand hates that part of the cheek and punching it.

But, “the pain” and “the pained” is one and the same; the “desire” and the “desired” is one and the same. The person who desires, the desire itself, and the object which is desired is one and the same. Understand, “IN THE PURE LISTENING WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE AS YOU IS THE SAME STUFF EVERY BEING IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE EXPERIENCES AS ITSELF”, is Advaitha Sathya.

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Advaitha, Enlightenment, Inspiration, Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Truth
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न जायते म्रियते वा कदाचित्
ज्ञायं भूत्वा भविता वा न भूयः |
अजो नित्यः शाश्वतोऽयं पुराणो
न हन्यते हन्यमाने शरीरे ||

Na jaayathey mriyathey vaa kadhaachith
Jnaayam bhoothvaa bhavithaa vaa na bhooyaha |
Ajo nithyaha shaashvathoyam puraano
Na hanyathey hanyamaaney shareerey ||

“It is not born, nor does it die;
It is not that having been non-existent it comes into existence;
It is unborn, eternal, ancient and ever-lasting;
Though associated with the body, it does not get killed even when the body is killed.”

Second Chapter, twentieth verse of the Bhagavadgita.

Please understand, I am quoting the Bhagavadgita not because these lines are just Krishna’s experience, but because these lines are my own experience too! I am not trying to hide myself behind Krishna’s authority. I am declaring these words are true. Reason one: Krishna said it. Reason two: My experience. Understand, it is not only Krishna’s authority, but my own authenticity. Both stand for these words’ truth. Both stand to prove these verses are true.

Completion, Four tattvas, Inspiration, Listening

Completion with life is eternal love!


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Experience of Completion is, it will give you the feeling it is enough for you to live your whole life. Completion has the capability of giving you the feeling it is enough for you to live your whole life.

If you have really, really fallen in love in your young age – not after seventy – if you have really, really, really fallen in love at the right age in your life, you will have that feeling-this love is enough for you to live your whole life. You won’t even bother about your basic needs! That’s why, in all movies, they show this sentiment of “Let’s elope and run away! Nothing else is required for our life. You are there for me, I am there for you!” But, you cannot eat one another! You can’t eat each other, you need food! But, you don’t care for anything else, because at that moment actually you feel the other person’s love is enough, because the other person’s love completes you and that is enough for you to live!

Completion with life is eternal love! Please understand, with anybody you feel complete, don’t think the person is completing you. Your Completion is making that person beautiful. If you see somebody and you are in love and you feel complete, be very clear that person has no role in your Completion experience. Because of your Completion, the person looks more greener than the green itself, more rosier than the rose itself, more beautiful than the beauty itself!

Four tattvas, Nithyananda, Spirituality, Truth

Real ownership is constant actions performed in perfection in continuum


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Ownership is formed without any bone structure by continuous action!

Your actions are like flowers. Ownership is like thread. If the ownership thread is used and actions are tied, it is ego, garland of ego. Never the real ownership happens in that way.

Real ownership is flowers are arranged so thoroughly in such packed way, it looks like garland but without thread – that is ownership.

There is no separate thread other than continuously actions being performed so meticulously, so continuously that it looks like a garland. But they don’t have a thread, ie. the ego. In a normal man, more thread and less flowers. 25 meter thread and in the end one flower! That is the energy you guys are spending on the thread which is ownership. Real ownership is constant actions performed in perfection in continuum.

Your ownership is flowerless garland. Drop that. Real ownership is felt by others by your continuous actions. Be unavailable to your lower self, be available to your higher self and enter into the battle. Understand your every day is a battle. Lay down all the effects, side effects, after effects of your actions. Don’t carry the perverted wrong hope. Relax from the iron chain of ownership. Give up the lower self, disrespect the lower self and enter into life!

Enlightenment, Listening, Meditation, Nithyananda, Spirituality, Truth

Don’t follow rules and tradition blindly !


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In the Olden days, people in India did not stitch clothes after sunset. This is because all stitching was done by hand with a needle. In the dim candle or kerosene lamp light it w$as not possible to see properly and one could get hurt by poking the fingers with needle. Even now in India, some people will not stitch with a needle after sunset. Even seamstresses and tailors will not do it, though we now have electricity and lights. They may not even stitch using machines! When we don’t have the necessary understanding of a practice, it becomes a dead rule, a superstition. With understanding, any rule can become a technique, a tool that helps us to lead life happily.

With deep understanding, it will dawn upon us that all rules were basically created to help people live blissfully and happily. The rules were meant to ensure that you were in peace with yourself and the others around you. Today, we have forgotten the basis for these rules. We create hell for ourselves and others with these rules.

There are people who truly believe that meditation and prayer will save their lives. They have been told so! They fuss a lot before they begin to meditate at home. They silence the children and all others around. They turn the whole household upside down. All for the sake of ten minutes of meditation! Let us see how the meditation proceeds. The moment meditation begins, they doze off! After a minute or two, they will start swatting mosquitoes. A couple of minutes later, a major itch manifests on some part of their body. Then, the back will begin to ache. Enough is enough, they decide, “I will continue this tomorrow. It is enough for today.”

Meditation is done for the sake of peace and silence. Why meditate at all, if inner awareness cannot be created? It is like a speaker trying to silence the listeners by outshouting at them. Will it help? If the listener is not interested however much one shouts, it is of no use. You cannot silence your inner chatter by making others quiet. You need to become silent, not others. We follow rules and tradition blindly. That is why religion has such a powerful hold on us.

Let us awaken to the powers that are within us! Nature has endowed us with unimaginable energy to be free. Be alert, awake and reach for this liberation!

Four tattvas, Nithyananda, Truth

Incomplete conversations with you how much ever you


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Incomplete conversations with you how much ever you push them under the carpet, they are not going to die, they will be running around in your inner space like Tom and Jerry  Today or tomorrow you have to face those in-completions.

Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality

Conflict-free life


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The outer world is nothing but a reflection of your inner state. We continuously experience some conflict or other every moment – in our relationships, in our goals, in our desires, in life-situations. We invariably attribute our conflict to someone or something in the outer world. We blame the outer world for our problems. People ask me, ‘How can I be conflict-free in a world that is filled with conflict? Only when the whole world is silent, happy and peaceful can I become conflict-free.’ Understand, that is never going to happen! There is no such thing as bringing peace into the whole world. All problems are usually created by people who try to make the world peaceful! In the last 3000 years, several thousand wars have been fought. Every leader who declared war claimed that he was going to bring peace to the world!

A conflict-free world starts with a conflict-free individual.

How to live a conflict-free life? By asking yourself one simple question in the situation of conflict. Do I really need to change this situation?If the answer you are hearing from within is Yes, if you feel that the change really needs to happen in your life, bring in a powerful intention, the energy, the shakti, to create that change in your life.

Understand, not all things need to be changed. Understanding and accept what need not be changed is intelligence, buddhi. To start living a conflict-free life, all you need to do is bring in the energy to change the things that need to change in your life, and the intelligence to accept what need not change. Above all, understand that whether you change anything or not, life itself is a continuously changing phenomenon. Once you realize this, you will naturally hold onto the one thing that never changes: the eternally unchanging Truth. Then you will automatically be conflict-free. When you start living a conflict-free life, you start living enlightenment. When there is no conflict inside you, you experience no conflict in the world!

Meditation, Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality, Truth

Swapoornatva Kriya Process


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First, please understand that the person in the mirror is the incomplete half of you. So when you complete with the person in the mirror, you restore completion to the person in the mirror and inside you as well.

Next:

  •  Sit in a comfortable position facing the mirror
  •  Connect with the person in the mirror. The person in the mirror is your incomplete self and you your complete self.
  • Look directly into the eyes of the incomplete self in the mirror
  • Contemplate on incidents/situations in your life where you experience low level energy emotions such as anger, guilt, frustration, agitation with yourself (incompletion in some form) from those incidents/situations – in the present moment
  • Now take responsibility for liberating your Incomplete self from this incompletion that you have kept alive for yourself
  • Re-live those incidents/situations and talk aloud with the person in the mirror.
  • Repeat re-living the incidents/situations and continue talking again and again till you experience being free of the low level emotions inside you.

Repeat this process each time you are stuck with low level emotions related to yourself.

Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality

What do you think about yourself ?


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Your body gets dismantled and assembled everyday. Your intestines replaces itself once in 3 months, your liver replaces itself once in 9 months, even your brain replaces itself once in a year. Practically once a year, your whole body replaces itself. This is the first truth.

Second, the ideas you carry about you plays a major role in reconstruction of your body. Please understand, every idea you carry about you plays a major role in re-construction of your body. Every day if you feel you are a wrestler, you don’t need to do any work out. I challenge, within 3 months the body measurements will be different. I am telling you lazy man’s way to build body. You don’t need to do anything, just contemplation. Only thing one corner of your mind will be barking like a dog, ‘No, no, how can this happen. I am not a wrestler. I can’t even move a tumbler. What do you mean by wrestler ? Wrestler means what you know – you need to punch people. I only get punched everyday’. Just shut that dog and say ‘That may be fact, but that is not truth. It may be fact now, but that does not mean it is going to be truth for tomorrow. I know tomorrow this is going to be the truth’.

The ideas you add everyday about you directly plays a role on your assembling. Its like when you get out of your house and are going to office you will carry office files, if you are going to golf club you will carry golf equipment; where you are going you will carry things necessary for that. Same way everyday when you come out of your deep sleep state, what-for you get into the body, you bring that kind of tools and weapons and assemble the body. So, everyday the idea you have about you directly plays a major role in assembling your body.

Please understand, your mind is you. If your mind is changed, you are changed. That’s all.

Meditation, Spirituality

Healthy body


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Your body is the vehicle for your dreams and your ornament. Your body is vehicle for your dreams, for all your dreams. The dream may be related to relationships or luxury or comforts, joys, experiences or enlightenment or whatever it may be. Your body is vehicle for all your dreams and it is an ornament. This is the definition of body.

Health means the ability to fulfill all the dreams you are carrying in a very casual way without losing the quality of being an ornament. Your body should be able to fulfill all the dreams which you are loading on it by being an ornament for you. It should be an ornament for you and it should be a vehicle for your dreams. That is what I will define as a health. If your body is fulfilling all your dreams and it got damaged, that is not health. It should fulfill all your dreams undamaged, that’s what I call health.

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What do I mean by living totally ?


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Try to live with more clarity, that’s all. Make the other people see sense in whatever they try to impose upon you. With clarity, you will be able to identify what your own desires are, what others have imposed on you and what desires you have borrowed from others. The first set of desires alone need to be fulfilled without any harm to any person or property. The other two need to be dropped with the help of clarity. If you live this way, you will no more be fulfilling others’ desires and you will be no more living others’ lives. You will live your own life, and experience fulfillment, and you will be ready to die when the time comes. You will have no lurking confusion and fear of death. I am not asking you to be selfish. I am only asking you to bring clarity into the whole thing. 

Once a Zen monk was ordered by the king to be put to death. He was supposed to be killed the next day. 

The monk remained calm and silent. 

One of his disciples, shocked by the monk’s calmness, asked him, “Do you realize you have only 24 hours to live? Are you not afraid?”. 

The monk replied calmly, “I have lived every moment of my life, moment to moment, and therefore I have no fear of dying”.

Enlightenment, Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality, Truth

In search of Death


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There was a famous king by the name of Uchaishravas. He was suddenly possessed by a desire to control the entire world and so he performed a Vaajapeya yaga – a fire offering that is done when one wants to rule the whole world. According to the rules of this offering, one has to give away as offering all valuable things that are of great attachment to them. Only then, one can get the position of the lord of the world.

Kings are always good business men. They have to be otherwise they cannot be  kings and have control over such vast property. They will see what minimum they can give and what maximum they can get out of it.

This king started offering things such as cows that were at the fag end of their lives, that had given all the possible milk they could give for a lifetime, and that had given birth to as many calves as possible in their lifetime and ready to die. He was offering all such worthless things.

His son, Nachiketa, about 7 years of age, was watching what was happening. Nachiketa knew that his father was not doing the right things but he did not know how to tell him. You see, children are very sharp and intelligent. You can’t cheat them. Society has not yet corrupted and conditioned them.

He was watching his father carefully. He finally went up to him and said, “Father, you have to give away all your highly priced possessions. I am one of your highly priced possessions. To whom are you going to give me as an offering?”.

The king understood that his son was digging at him for what he was doing, but his ego didn’t allow him to give way. He continued with his worthless offerings.

Once more, the boy asked him the same questions and the king kept quiet.

The third time, the boy shook his father and asked him to whom he was planning to offer him. 

The king got very angry and blurted out, “I will give you to Lord Yama. You go to Yama”.

An ordinary boy would have said “Why should I go? You have lived a full life, so you go!”.

But Nachiketa was a very sincere and committed boy. Commitment and honesty possessed him like a ghost. To respect his father’s words, he decided to go and meet Lord Yama. 

Remember that the first and the last person on planet Earth to go and meet Yama was Nachiketa. Normally only Yama comes to meet people, but for the first time, Nachiketa went to meet Yama. 

He reached the abode of Yama, but Yama was not there! He had gone out. 

For three days Nachiketa waited. 

Understand one thing here: A great truth is established at this point of the story. When we go in search of death or we have the courage to face death, death will not be there as we know it!

Anyhow, Yama returned after three days. His servants told him about the young boy who was waiting for him.

Yama rushed to see Nachiketa. He apologized for not being there to receive him. He further told him, “For having made you wait for three days, I grant you three boons. You may ask for any three boons, and I will grant them to you”. 

For Nachiketa, death turned out to be God that granted him boons! He asked for three boons. 

The first boon was, “My father should not be angry any longer. He should recognize me and receive me with love when I return”. Nachiketa asked for this boon out of the deep love for his father so that he does not suffer from the consequences of consigning his son to death. 

Yama granted him the boon. 

The second boon was, “Instruct me in the fire sacrifice that leads to heaven, for there is no fear in heaven, nor old age nor death”. 

This boon was also granted and Yama led Nachiketa through the fire sacrifice, and then named it Nachiketa Agni. This was a fire which could raise one’s consciousness to a heavenly experience, and experience of pleasure. 

The third boon was,  “Please teach me the truth of Existence, of life and death. Do I exist after death or not. Please tell me this.”

Yama was shocked at Nachiketa’s question. He told him “Please do not ask me this question. You are asking the very secret of death which I cannot deliver to you. I will give you immeasurable wealth if you wish, but please don’t ask me this question”. 

But Nachiketa was insistent. 

He said, “Even if I take all this wealth from you, I will be a mere trustee to your wealth for about 100 years to 1000 years, that’s all. I still have to come to your abode once that period is over! It is not going to be of any use to me. So please tell me the secret of death instead”. 

Yama saw the maturity and commitment of the boy to know the truth. He decided that he should give Nachiketa the truth. The experience he took the boy through became the experience of the soul for the boy and Nachiketa flowered and became enlightened. 

This is a beautiful story from the Upanishad called Katopanishad. Don’t analyze whether this story is a fact or not. Don’t start looking for dates and history. It conveys the truth – that is enough. Use it as a ladder to reach the truth, instead of clinging onto the ladder and missing the truth. 

Four things need to be understood from this wonderful story. The first thing is that when we go in search of death, when we face death, it will not be there as we thought it would be. This is symbolized by Yama being absent when Nachiketa goes to meet him. Secondly, even if death is there, it is not the terrifying thing that we think it is; it is loving and giving. This can be seen from the way Yama greeted and spoke to Nachiketa. The third thing is that death is our greatest teacher ever. That is why Yama taught Nachiketa many things. Lastly, death can give us the ultimate gift – enlightenment, which Yama did. 

Meditation, Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality

How can we learn from past experience ?


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Be very clear, you will never be able to learn from past experiences. Past experience can only make you do the same things again and again. Any memory about the past experience can only make you do the same thing in a larger or smaller way, but the quality will be the same.  Be very clear, you will never be able to achieve any significant transformation or change in your personality by remembering your past.

A connected, clutched mind creates more and more miseries in our personal life, professional career and relationships. It tremendously affects our creativity and economic well-being. Just unclutch. When we unclutch, the first thing that will happen to us will be the inner healing effect – a deep silence and peace in us. Second, that inner healing will start radiating in the physical well being, which is our health. Third, naturally it will start radiating in our relationships. Fourth, because these three are going beautifully, we will be creative and productive.

Enlightenment, Nithyananda, Paramahamsa, Spirituality, Truth

Intelligence


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We have an automatic intelligence which can run our lives, which can take care of our day-to-day life. Not only can it run our lives, it can maintain, it can extend or expand our lives. Your constant psychological planning, psychological worrying, fears, greed, whatever you think of as ‘You’, is not needed to run your life. Your very automatic intelligence is more than enough. 

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  • Be honest to your possibility. Live true to your capacity then none of your senses will be controlled or conditioned by patterns.

  • Self-Realization happens when you are true to your core.

  • Let us be independently dependent. My boundary, your boundary. Let us merge when needed.

  • Purana is the history with philosophical foot notes.

     

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“Unclutching – De-program the inner self” (part 2)


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….. continued from “Unclutching – De-program the inner self” (part 1)

Now we are coming to the initiation part. Any thought may suddenly click with you. Oh God! Yes that is what is going on in me, that is what I am doing. One important truth – even if you want, even if you try consciously, you cannot possess, sit, catch your suffering. Its a very important truth. Even if you try to catch, you cannot catch your suffering. Because continuously your suffering is also replaced by different thoughts.

One person came to me and asked “Swamiji, I am suffering from lustful thoughts. Please give me solution”.

I told him “Just sit. Half-an-hour your mind should not go anywhere else. Meditate on lustful thoughts. Think only lustful thoughts. No other thoughts allowed”.

In 10 mins he opened his eyes and said “I am not able to concentrate on lustful thoughts Swamiji”.

I said “What are you talking. You just now said that you are haunted by those thoughts. I asked you to meditate on it. Just be with it. Now you are saying your mind is not staying on those thoughts, your mind is going somewhere else.”

Understand, fortunately you can have only one thought at a time. Am I right ?. You can have only one thought at a time, the moment some other thought is coming in your inner space means the earlier thought has lost its power or influence over you. Am I right ? . Please follow with me in every statement. Fortunately you can have only one thought at a time, the moment a new thought has come inside your system the old thought has lost its power or influence over your system. For example, the moment you have decided to stand up and leave, you renounced the thought of sitting and listening. The moment you renounce the thought of standing and leaving, you decided to sit and listen. The moment you stand up, you renounce the thought of sitting. The moment you decide to sit down, you renounce the thought of standing up. Any thought which comes in you newly replaces the old thought. The old thought loses its power or influence over you by new thought. Am I right ?

One person came and asked me “Swamiji, I am haunted by death fear. I have so much fear about losing my wealth and about my death. Give me some solution. Please remove fear “.

I told him “Please have cup of coffee”.

He said “What do you mean Swamiji ?”.

I said “Think of having cup of coffee and have cup of coffee”.

He said “What is there. How can that help me.”

I said “The moment you are able to think you are having cup of coffee or decide to have a cup of coffee, the fear which is haunting your inner space has left your inner space”. Am I right ? Unless the death fear which is haunting his inner space leaves his inner space, he cannot think of having a cup of coffee. Am I right ?. So naturally, a simple thought to have a cup of coffee can remove the so called powerful death fear.

That guy said “No, no, no, Swamiji. It looks too simple. But the death fear comes back what should I do ?”

“If it comes back, have one more cup of coffee. That’s all”.

“No, no, no you don’t understand how seriously I am talking. You are playing with me”.

I said “I am not playing. Just simple thing. Understand, just simple understanding. Fortunately you can have only one thought at a time. The moment a new thought comes, it means the old thought has lost its power over you. Otherwise, new thought cannot come inside. The old thought cannot be replaced. If the old thought is so strong it will just multiply and sit on you. The moment a new thought comes it means the old thought has lost its power over you and it has left you. Only because of that a new thought can come inside. So, the moment you can have a thought to have a cup of coffee or cup of water, the so called death fear has left you”.

He is not able to understand. He said “No, no. It cannot be so simple. I am really having fear Swamiji. It comes back”.

I told him “Now you know the method how to replace the death fear once. Then do the same thing again and again. That’s all.”.

He said “I drank cup of coffee once. Next time what to do? “.

“Have a cup of butter milk. That’s all”.

Understand any thought which comes inside your inner space newly replaces the old thought. Even if it was worst fear. Even if it was worst depression. Even if it was worst suffering. Even if it was worst attachment. Even if it was lust. Anything it can be or anything it may be.  The new thought happening in you proves, your inner space is now replaced by a new thought. The old thought has lost its power over your inner space. Any thought which can lose its power over your inner space, why are you afraid of it. Why should you be afraid of it ?.

Constantly we are carrying the fear that we will not be able to conquer our fear. We are carrying the fear, we will not be able to go beyond our attachment. We are carrying the fear we will not be able to go beyond our suffering. Understand an important thing – this is what I call “the click”, “initiation” – If a thought can be replaced, if a thought can leave your inner space once. It means it can be again and again removed as many number of times as it comes. That’s all. People tell me “How many times I can replace ?”. What is there. Every time when it comes have a cup of water in front of you, sip once and keep it. Play with your mind. Tease your mind, till it stops. “It may look very funny. No, no, no it looks too simple. How can this be done. I may look like a mad person”. Nothing wrong. Looking is perfectly alright than being. If a new thought can replace the old thought, then naturally no thought can occupy or replace or possess your inner space eternally. This is what is the click, the basic truth. A simple thought like having a cup of water can replace the so called powerful death fear. It means what, all you need is cup of coffee to conquer your fear. All you need is cup of water to conquer your lust. But mind says “No, no, no. It is not that easy. No, no Swamiji, it comes back what to do ?”. If it comes back, you also again come back. You also again stand up. Understand if you can replace 10 times, the 11th time the thought will not come. The frequency will come down. Fortunately you have a pure inner space which doesn’t get corrupted by the flowing thoughts. An important thing – a fortunately you have a screen which doesn’t get burned by burning thoughts. If you project a burning scene on the screen will the screen be burnt ?. No. Same way, you have a pure inner space which does not get corrupted or polluted or get possessed by a particular idea or a thought. This understanding deeply can completely liberate you from all the sufferings you create for yourself. It can bring tremendous self healing to you, tremendous freedom to you and tremendous courage and confidence. You see, now, if any fear arises in you. What you need to do ? a cup of coffee. And one more thing, immediately mind will question – ‘No, if I handle all my fears like this, what will happen if my property is taken away. Who will maintain my family?’. Don’t bother. You have an innate intelligence which I call prarabdha. It is powerful enough, capable enough to manage your life using your body and mind. All you need to do is stop creating the sufferings which you are creating. Please be very clear, life does not happen because of you, life happens in spite of you. 

Come back, unclutch again and again. Do not clutch the thoughts and create or give meaning to it. Unclutch again and again, come back and rest. You may say “How to unclutch, I don’t think I can unclutch from my mind”. This very thought ‘I don’t think I can unclutch from my mind’. You have already unclutched. Because this new thought can come only if the old thought leaves you. Fear can come only if the lust leaves, lust can come only if the fear leaves. You can have a thought to have a cup of water only if the fear leaves. You can have a thought to have a cup of coffee only if the suffering leaves. The moment you are able to think that I should have a cup of coffee already the so called suffering has left. If a thought is sitting inside your inner space, how can you have a new thought, you can’t. Understand, handle your enemy one at a time. If you think – ‘No, no, no. Its a long story you don’t know Swamiji. I tried 1000 techniques, I can teach you many more techniques nothing works. And my mind is not that simple as you think. May be your mind is simple that is why it worked’. Please understand, even in foolishness we are not in peak. That is the one of the important truth we need to understand. All of us have a very clear idea we are in the worst ignorance. No, it is not. Just this simple one truth – If a simple thought of having a cup of coffee can come inside means, any serious thought, it may be pain or suffering or anything it can be, it has left me. That is why a new thought is able to come, that is why I have an inner space to entertain a new thought. So, as long as you have freedom to entertain a new thought, you have a inner space to entertain a new thought, be very clear you cannot be possessed or tortured by any suffering or by any depression or any pain.

Because you can just bring one more new thought, the moment you bring a new thought what happened, the old thought has left you. Unless it leaves, you cannot bring a new thought. So be very clear your power to bring a new thought itself proves that you have power to drop the old thought. Instead of looking at the ability to replace, you are looking at the ability to bring it back. You have both. If you are constantly looking at the ability to bring it back you will create suffering. If you are constantly looking at the ablity to remove you will feel liberation. Understand, what you mother that you hatch. Hen mothers the egg and chicken comes out. If you are mothering the thought – ‘you can replace any suffering’, you will bring that into reality. If you are mothering the thought – ‘whatever I replace will come back’, you will bring that in your experience. If you are mothering the thought that it is going to come back, it will come back. If you are mothering the thought that it is going to go out, it will go out. Where you put your awareness, where you put your attention is the important thing. Understand your very ability to get a new thought shows that you have ability to discard an old thought. Any thought can be discarded by any simple thought. This simple understanding is more than enough to unclutch and to rest.

One important thing, whenever any fear, any unsolvable problem comes, all you need to do from today is have a cup of water, that’s all. Your mind will get little perturbed and shaken. Your suffering can rule you just because you are afraid of it. Have you seen in the movies, the underworld don’s when they get created, they too will have deep fear. But just your fear towards them will empower them. Same way your mind too has fear about you. Your fear towards your mind just empowers your mind. Your mind also sometimes feels “Oh, what is this”.But you are more afraid of your mind then naturally what happens your mind gets empowered. One more thing, even once if you can replace your depression from your inner space have confidence that I have replaced, I can do it again. So, if it comes back 10 times, let me do it 10 times. That’s all.

There is a very beautiful story in  Buddha’s life. Buddha says “Whenever I sat in meditation that I am going to get up after few hours I never became enlightened. Once I decided if I am not going to become enlightened, I am not going to get up from this seat – idam asanam sushyate sareeram“. This sanskrit sloka means let this body dry up in this very place till I become enlightened, I am not going to move. The moment He created this strong clarity, authentic sankalpa (will), next second He become enlightened. All you need to do when you replace your suffering, if you are thinking – “No, no, 10 times today I can replace 11th time if it comes back tomorrow only I have to try”. Then nothing will happen. Decide till it stops coming, I am going to replace. Thats what I call courage – dheera. And once you have replaced means you can start laughing at it. “Arey! I was afraid of you so many years, I was getting shaken by you for so many years. All it takes to push you out is a glass of water or a cup of coffee”. Nothing else. A thought to stand up is more than enough to remove the worst suffering from your inner space. Whatever can be it looks too simple. That is why the problem is because it looks too simple, people come and tell me ” No, no Swamiji, it cannot be so simple. I think you missed some where Swamiji”. No, really people think, “He is too young may be He knows only few things. That is what He is teaching”. No that is the problem. Understand, truth is simple.

Ramana Maharshi sang a very beautiful song. He says “So easy the enlightenment science”. I tell you it is neither difficult nor easy. Even if you say it is easy there is little difficulty. It is not even easy it is constantly happening in you. Don’t you understand. Every moment a thought is being replaced by a new thought. Why are you afraid that you will bring your old thought back. Its like trashing your emails and bringing it back from a trash can. Relax!.

Constantly your thoughts are getting replaced, this itself shows nothing can possess your inner space. Nothing can over power you. Nothing can over rule you. You have independent intelligence to replace any suffering. You have freedom to replace any fear. You have freedom to replace any negativity.

Its a very simple truth. This is what I call “Unclutching”. If you can understand one truth and connect with this. If this one truth clicks, this can destroy the root of ignorance. The root of mind. Nothing else is needed. And one more important thing, nothing else can work. Please understand nothing else can work. Anything you try to do by creating a new thought, creating new idea.. people come and tell me “Swamiji, I want to escape from my suffering, should I chant some mantra“. I tell them that will become one more suffering. I have seen people chanting Rama, Krishna, Rama, Krishna, Rama, Krishna…..and in between shouting “Have you purchased the vegetables….Did you fill the accounts…then again Rama, Krishna, Rama, Krishna…”. Understand many time when you try to repeat something you create a new shaft. People feel offended, “how can you say mantra japa does not help. I am not saying it does not help. Of course let me tell you openly, it does not help. I just thought I will be socially polite. But let me be open. The satya is much more important than being socially polite. Understand, I tested it in my life for 10 years. Not with one mala, I will have 2 malas. By the time I finished both malas, I have chanted 10008 times. I have done Enough!. I tell you that only creates one more guilt that you are not able to do mantra continuously. Because by that time you move the next bead already one thought has come. If somebody records what happens in your inner space it will be like this – “Rama, Krishna, move the next bead, Rama, Krishna, move the next bead, Rama, Krishna, move the next bead”. This is what is going on inside. “Oh! I think I chanted too many times, let me count”. I know because I have done it. Not only that I have always seen people when they start counting the beads with closed eyes, after sometime they will touch the mala with other hand and see how long it is going to take. Is it going to take 5 more min or 3 more min, where that bead is there. Let me tell you its from my experience. Understand, an important truth do not try to create one more shaft. Just realize – the shaft which you believe as exists, does not exist. That’s all you need to understand and rest in that unclutched awareness – Nirvikalpa Satya. 

Let me explain exactly what is unclutching. When you sit silently, you will see so many thoughts coming up. Do not connect all of them and give a meaning to it. The moment you give meaning to the words either you will try to suppress or you will try to execute. Either you will try to go behind them or you will try to suppress them. Creating a thought is Brahma’s work, maintaining a thought  is Vishnu’s work, destroying a thought is Rudra’s work. If you stop doing all these 3 work, you will become parabrahman. That’s all. Creation, maintainence, destruction – relax from all three. Relaxing from all three is what I call unclutching. Let me give you one more detail or very strong truth – When a thought arises in you instead of giving meaning to it, just unclutch, means just relax to the source. When a thought arises if you start giving meaning to it, what you will do, either you will try to do what the thought says or you will try to suppress. Don’t do both. Instead of putting attention towards the meaning of the sound, just see the source of the sound. Then your mind will say – “I am feeling bored”. This is one more thought. How will you have the idea that you are feeling bored. The boredom which you experienced 10 years ago, the boredom which you experienced 9 years ago, the boredom which you experienced yesterday are independent experiences. Why are you connecting all of them and giving that idea “Boredom”. Only when you connect all of them and give the idea this is what is boredom, now you will think – “Yes, I am having the same experience. I am having boredom”. Do not connect and clutch and see. Just see. If your mind says “I am feeling bored”. Just say “What is boredom ?. Let me not give some meaning out of my past clutching. Let me see what you mean by boredom. Let me see how it feels like”. Attend your enemy one thought at a time. If you think all thoughts put together is your enemy, you empowered your enemy. When you work with your enemy, divide and rule. If you think all your enemies have gathered together, you will start having all unnecessary fears. Your enemies are not that intelligent as you think always. This is one of the important sutra. Even in your life, your enemies are not that intelligent and understanding and co-operative as you think. Just like you, they will also have problem among themselves. If you think your mind is your enemy, do not empower it by saying  – It is one single, huge organism. NO. Handle it one thought at a time. Because in your hand you have only one weapon, means you have only one thought. One thought is one weapon. With one weapon or one thought how will you handle 10,000 thoughts. No, you can’t. So, tell your mind, come one at a time, we will face each other. We will see face to face. Face every single thought, unclutch from every single thought. Your mind will say “No, no, half-an-hour I unclutched.  Now again thoughts are coming”. The unclutching happened 30 mins ago, the unclutching happened 20 mins ago, the unclutching happened 10 mins ago are totally different individual experiences. Why are you connecting all those experiences and feeling that this unclutching and that unclutching is same. No. This moment what is happening in me is an independent experience. You need to put your whole attention and awareness on this very subtle truth only then the click will happen. If the click happens you are blessed. Because this very single click can be used as a key for so many difficulties and problems in your life. It will revolutionize the way in which your mind functions, the way in which your mind makes decisions, the way in which your fears threaten you and your desires drive you crazy. The whole thing will be re-organized, the whole thing will be revolutionized. If you know any big idea or goal drives you crazy can be replaced just by a thought of having a cup of coffee. Will you have respect for that goal, will you have respect for that ideal. Suddenly you will see, what all you thought as goal, does not have any power over your inner space. You say “No, no, no. That and all is really needed for life. I don’t want to leave this, I don’t want to leave that”. You may try to catch here, there, here, there. But what to do even if you try to catch it is slipping. How long will you try to catch a river which is flowing. You can’t. Suddenly you will see an immovable, authentic self arises in you – this is what I call – living enlightenment.

An authentic being which does not need your mind to operate your body is what I call Living Enlightenment. Your being does not need your mind to run your body. If your mind is constantly staying inside you, it is just because of fear – what will happen to me, how will my body run if my mind leaves me. You do not understand if your mind leaves you, your life will happen in a much better way, in a much more intelligent way. Because your mind is culprit. Your thinking is problem. Your dilemma is suffering. Your movement is depression.

When you sit if thoughts are rising, just remember let me unclutch and unclutch. I am not going to empower this thought by following or by fighting. Let me unclutch. Again in 2 seconds one more thought will come, again let me unclutch. After few minutes you will see continuously you are repeating the thought – “I am unclutching, I am unclutching”. Then unclutch from that too. The moment you remember you, immediately unclutch. Unclutch from the very idea about you.

Understand, you have two identities. The identity which you carry and project to the outer world as you are, this is called ‘Ahamkara‘. And another one identity which you carry in you, which you believe as you inside your heart, this is called ‘Mamakara’. Your whole life is nothing but the fight between ahamkara and mamakara. How you want to project you and how you believe as you. What you want to project you and what you believe as you. Your life is nothing but the fight between these two identities. Ahamkara will always be much more than what you are – superiority complex. Mamakara will always be much lower than what you are  – inferiority complex. Your whole life is nothing but the suffering between this inferiority and superiority. Whether the thoughts are related to inferiority or superiority, neither give life nor suppress them. Just unclutch.

Now the important fear comes – “If I constantly unclutch who will run my life”. Understand, your prarabdha, with which you created your body, that is what I call bio-memory. Your  bio-memory is intelligent enough to run your body and maintain your infrastructure and expand your wealth. Trusting this truth is what I call “Bhakti”. Krishna says “Ananya-s-chintayanto Maam Yae Janaah Pary-upaasatae. Taesham Nithya-abhi-yuktaanaam Yoga-kshemem Vahami-aham” means “whoever resides in me, remembering constantly me, their needs and comforts, I myself bring and see that things stay with that person”. This assurance He gives for the people who have the fear of unclutching and relaxing. I tell you just try for 10 days, I am not saying try for whole life. Try unclutching for 10 days, if your balance sheet does not increase forget about Me and My technique. You will see it straight away adds to your life. Nothing will be reduced, nothing will be taken away. Your clarity, your profession, your relationship, your health everything will be added. 10 days constantly unclutch, whether you are eating, sleeping, driving, constantly try to unclutch. If it does not improve your life then forget about it. Don’t bother. I tell you, you will never miss it. I have seen how it just transforms your life. Don’t have this hypothetical fears. Mind exists based on hypothetical fears. If you look into the hypothetical fears mind will disappear. Do not entertain the hypothetical fears of your mind. Just try for 10 days. When I say this I am responsible for this words. Just try 10 days this unclutching, I assure, I have seen it only adds your health, adds to your wealth, adds to your well-being and adds to your relationship. Only your fear creates an idea that who will run my life. You will run your life in a much better way when you are unclutched.

You pick up few thoughts here and there. A conveyor belt is moving with thoughts on it, you pick up few thoughts and create a shaft. Either you pick up all sufferings and create a pain shaft or pick up all joyful memories and incidents and create a joy shaft. If you try to elongate the joy shaft or break the pain shaft both is impossible because the shaft does not exist. Third important thing, fortunately every new thought proves the old thought has lost its influence over your inner space. This proves no suffering can overtake you. Eternal hell does not exist. Understand, the eternal hell is a foolish concept taught to you to torture and frighten you. Because even here nothing can be eternal, it just moves. There is a beautiful one liner – you can’t step into the same river twice.  Because by that time you put your second step the river has moved. I tell you you can’t step into the same river even once, because by the time you put your foot and it reaches the ground, water has moved. Constantly the very replacement by new thoughts shows that you have a inner space which gets replaced, which gets rejuvenated, which gets refreshed, which is untouchable, which is pure. Because the inner space is pure you are able to have new, new thoughts. The new thoughts happening proves old thoughts have lost their influence over you. So, do not be afraid of depression, suffering, fear, desire or anything. Do not be afraid of internal enemies. Let you be liberated from the internal enemies.

And the last essence, the ultimate thing – Do not be afraid of unclutching. A small example, in North India they will have a strange way of trapping the birds. I have seen in my wandering. I have spent my 10 years in walking all over India, begging and eating and sleeping under the trees and meditating. I have seen in North India they will have a trap to catch birds. They will put a stick and hang it between two trees, that’s all. When this stick is hanging, the bird will come and sit on the stick. When it sits just because of its own weight, the stick will turn upside down as shown in the image below. This poor bird starts thinking that if it will relaxes or leaves the stick, it will fall and die. I have seen for hours the bird will be hanging, the poor guy will be fluttering, will be trying its best, shaking the wings. But he will be hanging thinking that if he relaxes or lets go, he will fall and break his head and die.

bird hanging from the stick

Have you heard anytime a bird falling from sky and breaking his head and dying, NO. Fool does not know that if he lets go he can just fly, he can be liberated. I have seen the bird will be hanging, this hunter will slowly come after 2-3 hours, pick up that bird and put it in the cage. How that foolish bird is thinking, if it lets go he will fall die. Same way we have the fear that if we let go of our mind, if we unclutch we will fall and our life will become mess, we will disappear. Understand, there is no record, the bird which opened up has fallen and died. Same way a person who has unclutched has lost something in his life. One more thing, the bird feels that the stick is a security, it hangs on to it. When the hunter comes not only he loses the stick which he thinks as security, he is eternally prison-ed. Same way what you think as security, your mind and life, if you hold on to it what happens when the hunter which is Death comes , not only what you think as security will be lost and also you will be put to death. Just like that bird in a very foolish way we are hanging to that stick, the mind, with the fear if we let go what will happen.  Sometimes I have seen the birds which are flying, they will come and poke this bird, and tell “Hey, let go, I had the same problem. When I relaxed I just started flying”. All it takes is 2-3 seconds to balance. The bird will be topsy-turvy, when it leaves, may be 2 second it will start falling, and it just turns and start flying. Courageously facing that 2-3 second chaos is what I call “Tapas”. When you unclutch, there will be some revolution in your life, in day to day thinking, decision making, in your daily routine, in your life style. Courageously going through that revolution, going through that transformation which happens in you is what I call tapas. Rarely the bird which was stuck like this in the trap, but had courage and let go of the stick, it comes back and tells the other bird which is hanging to let go, relax. Understand, if the bird relaxes it will be enjoying its freedom. Same way if you let go you will become paramahamsa. Let me tell you I was hanging, now just because I have seen this in my experience, with that courage, with that authenticity, with that satya (truth)…. Please understand, when it comes from the experienced inner space even if your logic is fighting don’t bother you will have that experience. When it comes from the truth, it will reach your true self and being, all you need to do is just let go, you will become paramahamsa. Let you live enlightenment.

Life lived in an unclutched way is what I call Living Enlightenment. 

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“Unclutching – De-program the inner self” (part 1)


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Let me express a key word – Mahavakya, the word which you need to completely understand. May be modern day ‘Mahavakya’. The word is “Be Unclutched”. Now let us try to analyze and internalize this one truth, one mahavakya. We have beautiful different Mahavakyas in Vedic tradition – Aham Brahmasmi, Tatvamasi, Pragnam Brahmam, Sarva Kalvidam Brahmam. These are all different Mahavakyas. Be Unclutched – What do I mean by the word – being Unclutched. Let me try to explain it with a simple diagram, how, continuously our mind is working and how we are clutching, connecting and creating a life or suffering and how we are creating the ignorance or depression.

 

Thoughts are happening in your system the way it is shown in the above diagram. Each block represents a thought. Different shape, different size, different length, different width, different kinds of thoughts. Sometimes, a thought (J) is about some joyful experience which you had, sometime about some suffering (S) which you had, sometime you have some guilt thoughts (G), again sometime some joyful (J) memories, again some painful memories (P) and some depression memories (D)….different, different thoughts. If you just do a simple experiment, just for 5 min, if you write whatever goes inside you without editing as it is and read that page again, suddenly you will realize that you are nothing but a bunch of unconnected, independent, illogical, unclutched thoughts. Please understand the thinking flow which is happening inside you is not logically connected. For example, if you see a dog in the street, suddenly you will remember the dogs which you have seen when you were a child or the dogs about which you used to be afraid. Then you will remember your childhood days, then you will remember the teacher under whom you studied. Then you will remember the place where teacher stayed. The link will go on. But there is no logical connection between the dog which you have seen in the street and the teacher with whom you studied when you were young. Of course, both of them barked at you.  There is no logical connection. Suddenly from where the mind moves to where, there is no logical connection.

In the west they have a software called dragon software, whatever you speak it will transcribe. I also use sometimes for writing books. If your mind is connected to a dragon software how it will transcribe, transcribe the same way whatever goes on inside. With the same kind of grammatical errors or with the same accent or with same words or same pronunciation, even if it doesn’t make any sense just pen down. Suddenly you will see you are nothing but bunch of independent, illogical, unconnected and unclutched thoughts. You do not know why a particular thought is raising after a particular thought, there is no logical reason, just something arises and then next something else is arising, next something else is arising, thoughts are flowing, words are flowing.

When you are suddenly aware of your body and your existence, at those moments any thought which flows in front of you becomes your life, you start giving attention to it either to fulfill or to escape. Its like a projector light is there, any slide which is kept in front of the projector light is seen as a reality in the screen. One problem is in your inner space the projector light is not continuously ON, it just comes and goes, comes and goes. Whenever you are not aware of your existence, many time, even though your eyes are open, even though your body is moving, you will not be aware of your existence. You can see in your life, you will get into your car at your house, drive for 30 mins, only after you reached the office, park the car and come out of the car suddenly you will realize – Oh! I finished my driving, i reached my office. You have taken 200 decisions in that 30 mins, right, left, giving brake, stopping for signal, but you are not aware of your existence. That is why you don’t remember all these decisions you took and all these things happened in you. Those few moments the projector light was OFF. Any slide which was moving in front of it is not part of your life.

Again for no reason the light is ON, when you are aware that you exist, whatever thought moves in front of you, they become your part, they become your life. Understand, its a very subtle truth. Your life is totality of all the thoughts moving in front of you but unfortunately many time, many major decisions, thoughts, the life changing incidents happen when you are not aware. Its like the film which moves when the projector light was OFF, that also is part of your life. But, unfortunately you are not aware of the scenes, decisions, thoughts which went on, which contribute to your life, which are also part of your life, just because the light is OFF. Every single moment which passes in your life without you being aware of this moment, of your presence, is suffering. Either directly or indirectly it will add to suffering. Either directly you will invite or indirectly you will create a situation for the suffering. When you turn your car indicator it blinks, the same way your consciousness also blinks, you do not know when it is ON or OFF. If you just see the thought flow in front of you suddenly you will realize – Oh god, all these things are going on in me, then what is going on inside me, I myself do not know where I am heading, I myself do not know what is happening in me. Here, understand the above diagram, we will see more deeper and deeper truths.

First, I want all of you to understand, you are not aware of all the decisions, all the thoughts moving inside you, inspiring you to live the way in which you are living, inspiring you to think the way you are thinking, inspiring you to be the way you are. You are not aware but constantly we believe we are aware. This is the first illusion. Whenever I say this people get frightened, Oh god! already I have enough suffering now He is adding one more suffering, one more fear that I do not know where I am heading. Understand, I am not adding suffering, I am just helping you to experience, open up to the reality. One more thing opening up to the reality even though it feels like suffering in the initial level it will always lead you to the joy and bliss because ‘Sat’ which means ‘The Truth’ by its very nature is ‘Chit’ means ‘Power/Consciousness’ and ‘Ananda’ means ‘Bliss’. By its very nature, ‘Sat’ leads to ‘Chit’ and ‘Chit’ leads to ‘Ananda’. Even though in the initial level it feels like little more responsibility, little more load.

Now itself many of your minds would have decided “No, no, no, what He says may be right that I am not aware, but I can’t become aware of everything happening in front of me. Oh, living in the present moment, being aware of whatever is going on, that and all is not for me. I tried many times Swamiji, you don’t know how many techniques I tried.”  Understand, we are not that dumb as we think. We have huge possibility, huge potentiality. May be the right initiation has not happened. The right click has not happened. So, don’t close the file. No, no, no, I tried many times, you don’t know how many gurus I went to, how many techniques I have tried. There are many people like that. I call them professional seekers. Their profession is seeking. Anywhere, any board, any swami, any guru, any saint, any mahatma, anybody they will be there. Not for learning, just for judging. What is he teaching let me see. People come to me and ask me “I know everything Swamiji, just give me in essence what extra you can add to me“. I tell them “Sorry, I don’t know anything extra to add you, I can only remove something from you. What you think as knowledge I can remove that so that the truth can happen.” Please do not come to the decision “No, no, He is again I think going to teach living in the present moment. I know I tried many times, it doesn’t work out, if it works out in sometime it goes away“. No, I am not going to teach you living in the present moment. Because you are living, why should I teach. Even if you are suffering about past, you are suffering in the present. Even if you are worrying about your future, you are worrying in the present. So, you are in the present. I am not going to teach you to be in the present. All I am doing is trying to take away some ideas which you think as your mind.

The first truth is you are not aware of all the things which is happening in front of you. You do not remember your biography as it happened. You remember only as you want it. When people ask me many time I tell them, if your TPS (thought per second) comes down, you will have clarity about your past and future. Then they tell me “About past already I have clarity, why should I have clarity about my past by bringing my TPS down. Now itself I know my past“. No, please understand you don’t know your past, you don’t remember, recollect the past as it happened. You recollect only as you want it, not as it happened. Just a simple example, if you see the above diagram, your life was filled with different kinds of incidents – joy, suffering, guilt, pain, depression… different, different quality of incidents.  You do not look at the life as it is. Usually what you do…what we do. I use the word ‘WE’ because sometime people think the word ‘You’ means too condescending. Thats the reason I used ‘We’. The problem is in the public place you can neither use ‘We’ nor use ‘You’. If I say ‘You’, somebody feels condescending. If I use the word ‘We’, then they may say if you also have the same problem how can you teach me, that is the big problem. Anyhow I don’t have a better word, so I use the word ‘We’. What usually we do is some joy, some suffering, some guilt….this is our life, different thoughts, different experiences. Usually you collect only all the suffering related incidents and create a SHAFT, create a connecting idea and think your life is nothing but suffering as shown below.

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Am I with Right Guru or Wrong Guru ?


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A right guru will go on pushing you to continuously move forward. He will never give you the feeling you are done. The real peace is the explosion of the mind which asks for peace into piece, piece. What you think as real peace is tamasic tiredness, chronic fatigue. That is why when life comes in front of you, you just jump into some cave as you wanted to have a cozy cave. Even if you catch a cave, you do not understand that I am the walls of the cave. A real Master will go on be pushing you. The samadhi happens to a person whose non-mechanical parts of the brain is alive, awakened. The mind which asks you for vacation, for rest, for peace, for tiredness has to be blown away. It should explode to piece, piece, only then peace happens. A real master will go on be pushing you. Will not encourage the fatigue tiredness. He will never run a resort, He will run only a commune. May be after His death, His disciples might change it into a resort. A person who asks for the peace of a resort out of fatigue, tiredness, wanted rest, will never be allowed in the presence of a living master. The mind which asks once in a while “I think I need rest, I think I need a break”. Yes you need, not from the situation but you need break in the root. You need to be broken. The mind which asks for a break needs to be broken. That is the break it needs. A real Master is a person who goes on pushing you. 

Ability to receive what you think as suffering or poison given by Master as prasadam (gift) or nectar, what you think as poison as nectar and stand with it, is what I call Tapas.